TTOT – Find some happy in the crappy

So, my posting rate for this year is fairly crappy. I am not quite managing a blog a month, and I’m wondering whether to keep my little place here going at all.

Actually – that’s a story for my whole attitude at the moment. Perhaps it’s time to shut down everything and take a long break.

I know part of my lack of enthusiasm for blogging comes from knowing that some people from RL found their way here. Okay, I knew it would happen, and I know I was very lax in keeping the whole shebang quiet – thanks mainly to Facebook recommending everyone should know everyone in the world.

My sister-in-law now pops in (Hi there) and told a couple of her friends about it (Well, I’m a bit unclear on that one. When she was drunk she said she told them, when she was sober she claimed she didn’t. I’ll assume that with alcohol comes truth.) The point being, I now feel restricted on the things I can write about, which kind of detracts from the point of having my own online space. (The key here is that, if you read it online, don’t talk to me about it in person.)

The year has been kinda crappy from the start anyway – what with the depression, and the ups and downs of living with that. It’s interesting to find out how your friends react when you could do with some time out – including the ‘close’ ones who told me my husband was attention seeking and then were not heard from again.

My cousin – well, my first cousin once removed – just passed away. She was elderly, terminal and all round it was a merciful release. That doesn’t stop it being upsetting, not least because she was my dad’s only relation, immediate family aside, and he is clearly upset. Her husband passed away a few years ago – after having a heart attack at our wedding.

It’s bringing home the fact that we are rapidly becoming the ‘older’ generation. I mean, my mum is losing her eyesight, my dad is on the cards for a double bypass – it’s all getting a little grown up around here!

On the same day she passed away, I scratched the husbands Porsche. You can imagine where his priority was! But then, I guess it’s just one of the many things I just deal with alone.

We’ve spent 6 months working towards getting our own family business through planning – it’s something we are really quite excited about, having control over our own lives. We’ve had objections from neighbours, of course. We’ve also had a lot of enthusiasm from other local businesses, but no one close to us. Really, it’s quite demoralising fighting a constant battle for 6 months, and remaining optimistic about that, on top of everything else. And the fight isn’t over yet.

So, really I feel like the coyote trying to catch the road runner, failing to really achieve any success, and always having to work alone to get anywhere.

Right now I’m feeling the need for time out. No work, no worrying, no treading carefully round everyone else’s feelings … I just don’t see how that’s possible, what with everything that seems to need to be done.

Perhaps it’s time to give up my blog space. Or maybe I need to have my own space, here, more than ever.

But – as aways, it’s important to find some happy in the crappy. So – here goes.

  1. I’ve had some genuine, all new, sought me out customers in the last 2 weeks. Three writing gigs that came to me through no effort on my own part. My reputation is expanding locally, so I have been told, so 6 months of networking and effort are paying off.
  2. I also have 2 regular, and really interesting, monthly clients. So, just another few to go to be assured of a regular monthly income and I can tick off goal 1.
  3. A couple of my articles have been published, and I’ve had some very positive feedback from the clients.
  4. Also, the editor of an international magazine has said he likes my writing style, and we’ve got a few jobs on together. Altogether, pretty excited by work right now.
  5. I’m meeting up with Lizzi Rogers in real life very soon. A proper face to face with a blogger – how exciting, and scary is that! When she realises I’m completely different in person, this could all go horribly wrong. Still – we have set a date!
  6. It’s almost the summer holidays. Whilst we don’t have any adventures planned, it is the end of the school run for 6 weeks. Phew.
  7. Sackgirl and I have been watching some classic films. I know, she’s 10. But Botboy was away so we took advantage to try out Jaws. She was a bit wide eyed in parts.
  8. We also made brownies for the first time – and they taste great. So, I’m going to go eat some now.

Do you ever feel like giving up on the blogging? Or just giving up on life for a while and taking some time out?

chocolate brownies

 

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TTOT – Find some happy in the crappy — 10 Comments

  1. *ahem* Lewis. I changed it.

    But…whatever you decide to do with this space, I shall always be glad you had it, and that I met you here. And I am VERY looking forward to meeting you face to face.

    BOO about the Porsche and the loss of your Dad’s cousin. I sometimes wonder at the whole ‘suddenly properly grown-up’ thing, and I think it will hit me more when my last two grandparents shuffle off this mortal coil. Not a pleasant set of thoughts 🙁

    Well done you on juggling all the lemons, still 🙂

    • Oh – I knew that. I know that. I just forget. I’ll amend it. 🙂
      I think I was having a dreary weekend – must not type when having a dreary day or two. Could do with some general pick me ups.
      Lemons, apples, and someone throw in a grapefruit, prickly bugger. 😉

    • The brownies are delicious. I don’t normally like them as being a bit thick and chewy, but these are much lighter. Clearly the daughter has a cooking gift. No idea where she gets that from!

  2. Have no trepidation about meeting Lizzi for real. I still consider the meet up in the States last September a highlight in my life. Congrats on all the writing opportunities. I have a different perspective on the blogging thing. I started my first blog as a way to document family get togethers. The sad thing for me is that my family doesn’t read my blog. But I write it for me.
    Valerie Newman recently posted…Ten Things of Thankful – Of Things Broken and FixedMy Profile

    • If youa re writing for yourself and it’s filling that need, then it’s worth everything you put into it. One day your family may read it. I always think that the kids can look back at it when I am older and see what we did together.

  3. I struggle with blogging, I think everyone does at some point or another. I kept my space private from RL people for a long time for the same reasons, or similar ones anyway, to your reasoning. Then one day I decided that I would let my friends and family choose if they wanted to read my words or not – the true, honest, ugly or pretty ones. I warned them that my journey is not for the faint of heart, as I also fight depression, and I would not be offended if they chose not to read but in choosing to read they were not allowed to judge. We all handle such situations differently, it’s hard. I wish you all the best <3

  4. Blogs change over time. Blogging, for me, has become the thing I love. Well, it’s such a part of my life now, but I do consider giving it up and focusing all my writing energy on other projects. I know I won’t, but I am trying to cut back and stick to more moderation in all things. I am not a blogger. Well, I am a writer first and have a blog, but am bad at the blogging thing overall.
    It’s hard, to know certain people in particular may be reading. You have to separate the two. Easier said than done. People get offended. People read too much into things a lot of the time.
    Brownies sound delicious and exciting about your writing hard work paying off. Hope, whatever you decide to do with this blog, that continues. You can always start another blog some day, if you stop and eventually want to return. Or not. Up to you and only you.
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    • You are right – mine has changed. It used to be for practice, then I got suckered into chasing audience figures but that was exhausting and unnecessary. Now I am just happy to be able to let it all out.

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